On December 31st, I ended the year without a sense of drive. I wanted my first accomplishment in the New Year to be about focus and growth. I spent the first twenty-one days of the year fasting social media. I eliminated social media in order to allow God to come into my life and take over. I asked for God to show me the error of my ways, make my purpose clear and strength my mind to conquer the year ahead of me. During my break from social media I watched an interview on Oprah Winfrey that open my thought purpose on being “Intentional”.
In the interview I posted below, Oprah did a controversial episode, early in her career, where she brought a husband, wife and his girlfriend on her show. Unbeknownst to Oprah, the husband decided on live television to tell his wife that his girlfriend was pregnant. Oprah immediately felt the wife’s embarrassment and shame. She knew from that point her show needed change. She would no longer be used by television but she would use television for good. She asked herself how could she use this platform to speak to the world? How did she want to see change in the world? How does she want to impact the world?
As much as I hate to admit, I realized I started an organization called Leadership in Full Effect to fulfill a sense of satisfaction within myself. To feel like I was bringing a sense of accomplishment to the table my husband lays all his achievements on. Please don’t be mistaken, being a nonprofit founder has always been a dream of mine but I questioned my motives behind the timing. Until, I watched this interview I didn’t understand how dishonest and selfish I was being. That’s when God directed my attention to this interview. If I was going to start this organization right now, I must be intentional in all my discussions. I am taking “innocent” lives in my hands; therefore, I will not do anything unless I have fully thought out my intentions. For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction and what propels the action is the intention.
When I removed my selfish ways out of the equation, God poured his own accomplishments in my life. The first two days after my fast ended I received incredible news. My hard work is paying off and my heart is definitely in the right place. I will continue to pray that my heart stays focused on God's work. It's easy to get caught up on yourself but that's not what we were put on this Earth for. There is a bigger picture than ourselves.
I pray you watch this interview and it answers or reveals something deep within of you.